My Life & Thoughts

Paintings & Another drawing

molli — Sun, 06 Jan 2008 03:07:28 +0000

drawing complete!!

molli — Mon, 31 Dec 2007 03:14:42 +0000

help

molli — Sun, 21 Oct 2007 19:26:41 +0000

I feel discouraged. Right now I don’t like my job and I feel like a failure. I feel like the stupid young girl who everyone takes advantage of. Maybe I should quit my job. I feel like I should have time to build my confidence and take up a hobbie, that way, when I get a job, I’m confident and won’t take things so personally. The owner of the store told everyone to give me a math lesson because the till was off a couple times. And I’m so depressed about it!!! It’s stupid. Any advice??

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molli — Fri, 07 Sep 2007 04:56:38 +0000

gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

crazy people?

molli — Thu, 30 Aug 2007 21:30:23 +0000

I am reading the book ‘Girl Interrupted’ and it’s changing my views on life. (I love those types of books!) It breaks my heart to know that so many people are in mental hospitals, just because they aren’t a part of the stereotype that includes being so busy that you forget about yourself, and your true perspective on life and it’s events. At times I find myself insulating my brain from the outside world; and it’s those times I feel myself. Anything is possible at this point. It’s almost scary to the extent things can go, but it’s beautiful how much my imagination runs.

It’s like I dig so deep into my brain that it’s like a constant rollercoaster, yet every aspect intertwines.

Now there are people with mental disabilities, but there are also the people diagnosed with ‘depersonalization.’ It’s not a problem, it’s actually the opposite! They are so dug deep into reality, that the clouded perspective most humans have due to media no longer exist, they are thinking the way we were supposed to. The only reason they call it ‘depersonalization’ is because thinking this way can get you very depressed. I know, because thinking one way is almost addictive, and i’ve experienced it.

I love changing my perspective, I love considering things never considered before, I love considering the morally crazy ideas, I love looking at different religions.

Hmm. I don’t know if that will make any sense to anyone. Haha what if I am crazy and thats the only reason I think people aren’t?

I miss Sterling!!!!

molli — Wed, 22 Aug 2007 22:13:53 +0000

school

molli — Tue, 21 Aug 2007 21:35:24 +0000

So actually i’m only going to highschool. Till February. Then i’ll graduate instead of in June!! I just got my schedule this morning and I am taking AP Art, drawing techniques, film as literature, creative writing, religions of the world, us govt, and mentoring disabled highschoolers. Then I also have one open class which is always nice. I’m happy about my schedule, still not happy about going to school though haha. This morning I locked my keys in my new car. The owner had no spare so that sucked!! We had to call triple A and have my gramma come with her card. I ate noodles and ice cream at her house. I don’t think i am going to be feeling very good tomorrow because of my food allergies haha. But who can resist it, especially when your sweet gramma gives it to you? Well tonight I am invited over to Andie’s house, and I don’t know whether I should go or not because it might just make me angry or sad, and who needs that?? Annnddd she has cats..which im allergic to. What do you guys think? Should I go? She always disses me for other people. Maybe I am just being stubborn??

bad things!!!

molli — Mon, 20 Aug 2007 17:53:32 +0000

Lately bad things are happening! Yesterday Sheldon and Schaans condo..today the new girl called me and said she couldn’t make it into work because she had just gotten hit by a car while riding her bike to work! Crazy. She is okay but she thinks she may have broken her knee. I am loving the weather today. It is such a nice break from the hot weather.. I am ready for fall!

Ralph Waldo Emerson-Nature

molli — Fri, 17 Aug 2007 07:36:29 +0000

My Favourite Essay.. & a blog dedicated to it!!!

“In the woods, we return to reason and faith. There I feel that nothing can befall me in life, — no disgrace, no calamity, (leaving me my eyes,) which nature cannot repair. Standing on the bare ground, — my head bathed by the blithe air, and uplifted into infinite space, — all mean egotism vanishes. I become a transparent eye-ball; I am nothing; I see all; the currents of the Universal Being circulate through me;”

I love this whole essay..this is one of my favourite paragraphs though.

What can I say, I’m a hopeless romantic

molli — Thu, 16 Aug 2007 06:46:13 +0000

Since Sterling is gone, I’ve been a real sucker for love songs; even more than I already am. I have been into particularly Elton John love songs. I like his stuff from the 70′s the best.

gah, I am spending all my money on I tunes.